Deciding to watch a marathon of Robin Williams’ movies means you have learned nothing from this tragedy. Be happy. Be happy for yourself and those around you. It’s also okay to be sad. But it’s not okay to be sad and alone. And it’s especially not okay to stand by and watch someone else be sad and alone. Life can be fucking hard and it can be fucking miserable. But most of the time, it can be the complete opposite. Do whatever you can to never lose sight of that.
I first heard the phrase “jerk off” when I was about 10. I was at my local Boys and Girls Club and the older kids kept saying that Ronnie got caught jerking off in the bathroom. I kept repeating it all day because I was convinced it just meant that a jerk was having an off day. Someone simply caught Ronnie in the bathroom when he wasn’t on his game. What other explanation could there be? Ronnie was generally mean, but he seemed pretty reserved that day. A real off jerk.
"I’ll take a jerk off any day," I said gleefully to my mom once we arrived home. She laughed and let it slide, as she knew I was too young to understand the ramifications of what I had just proclaimed. But I knew. I knew I’d never be ashamed of myself for being a huge jerk off. And unfortunately, for most of the people reading this, this might be the only promise to myself I’ve managed to keep. So Ronnie, if you’re out there, I hope you burn in hell. There were kids around you sick fuck.